{"id":631,"date":"2009-09-02T16:32:00","date_gmt":"2009-09-03T00:32:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mixhart.ca\/blog\/?p=631"},"modified":"2013-11-12T15:31:05","modified_gmt":"2013-11-12T23:31:05","slug":"back-on-my-zen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.mixhart.ca\/index.php\/back-on-my-zen\/","title":{"rendered":"Back on My Zen"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\"\"<\/a>My girls in my parent’s back yard. Their property extends to the waterline of the Thompson River.<\/p>\n

I have been flying by the seat of my pants all summer long—this is so unlike me. I am usually so organized, so schedule rigid, so driven. But chaos<\/span> ensues<\/span> this summer. Perhaps it is good to let everything go–to flow along with it–following my life, not leading it–once in awhile. I am ready to get back into the driver’s seat though–perhaps it is impossible to keep a schedule for years and years without a fly-by-your-pants summer to break it up occasionally<\/span>. Of course fear is what prevents me from embracing the fly-by-the-pants summer completely. Fear that I will accomplish squat and I will get out of shape. I think my mental balance needs structure to be free. Without structure, I actually feel much more trapped. I have tried mediating periodically and realize how scattered my mind is in this state. I cannot focus on any of my usual meditations<\/span> long enough to complete them. So, in observation, I note that my life is more zen within my self-created mandala for my life path. If I let that go (as I have this summer) my mind becomes more chaotic<\/span>, less zen. <\/div>\n
Today Pip and I are making chocolate<\/span>\/pumpkin cupcakes with chocolate cream cheese icing because she tells me, “dey<\/span> are my favowit<\/span>!”<\/div>\n
Went out for tapas at the Elderado<\/span> deck last evening on the marina with Miranda and her visiting friend Jen from Guelph. Lightening and thunder chased us inside a few times.<\/div>\n
The Mist is camping with friends at Bear Creek Provincial campground across the lake. I was worried for their safety<\/span> during the storm.<\/div>\n
Tabs is at swimming (Auntie took her) and then she will join her cousins and friends at Energiplex<\/span> for indoor sliding fun.<\/div>\n
Peter is on a special task force at UBC<\/span> dealing with how to cope with the impending Swine-flu pandemic they predict this winter.<\/div>\n
I am actually going to do a serious meditation tonight to get myself back on my Zen!<\/p>\n
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